Joey... I have sweeter names for my kids.. :-p

Anayah Marie
Yahaira Apollonia
Santino Rafael
Tazzio Alfonso
Hey but don't ask me about a last name well shit not married and not planing to have kids anytime soon but when I do I have my name picked out.. I think I'm a head of the game.. Hehe

Don't ever

Don't ever call Qwest if you have short temper and dont like to wait for things.. THEY TAKE FOREVER!!!!!

Ready..Set..GO!!!!

And now my new race starts running from my parents.. Thank you asshole of all asshole for opening your big ass mouth and telling the whole world the one thing I'm must ashmed of.. Not only I'm embarassed that I let myself be the fool in this situation but to make sure it gets to my parents ears.. You don't deserve to be alive to don't deserve anythin you have. Why do you ask I'm so mean to this person? Here is the answer... He betrayed me and my cousins... He chose a dirty bitch that has him blind with her lust that she calls love... He was always the one that said I will always be there for you no matter what cuz blood is thicker than water... He chose her over his blood.. and then he has the... uhh whats the word I'm looking for... cuz balls he doesn't have.. he wants to bring me down in order to make himself and his stupid girl look good infront of the whole family, if wants to play dirty he picked the wrong bitch to start off with.. he will now relly see that I like to run my mouth.. cuz to refresh everyone I was have a big mouth and I tell everyone everything( so he says) so if I do this now I'm going to do it with more pleasure.. at least at 19 im living on my own while he is still living at mommy and daddy's house at the age of 26 with a wife or something like that. Which I made add is a fake marrige if I ever seen one.. but anyways.. All I'm going to say is when I get my hands on him he is going to wish he had never put my buisness out to his mother or to anyone at this matter and I can't believe that he would do such a thing.. but I can play that say game only maybe a little worse he forgets that I know more than what I pretend not to know... He will wish he would have never said anything about me... I will make sure of it... I'm really not this mean I'm really sweet but he crossed a line that shouldn't be crossed and I will make sure that everyone knows who he really is that he is not the saint everyone thinks he is. Instead of how the songs says " X is coming for you" it's going to say " X you stupid son a bitch run and hide under mommy's skirt this Bitch will find you and shred you to piece.. cuz I'm coming for you and I wont be happy till I draw blood or tears.." Run a hide bitch I'm coming and you wont come out of this one alive you stupid asshole you are not gonna ruin my life like you have yours think again..

Cold

So ever since I moved out my parents house they have been cold with me. They want to talk to me when I walk into someone's house as to predend like I haven't their home. I guess not to seem like they have done something wrong with my up bringing. Which is not true they have been great parents and all that good stuff I just can't live with them for reason they must understand. Which they probably will never understand. I don't like to be told what I can and can not do it just doesn't feel normal to me. I like to feel like I'm making my own choices for me not because everyone else told me I want to feel free something I'm doing . They don't understand and it hurts. I'll get over it.

Oh GOD!!!!

What have I done..... I can't believe I went down that road again.. I don't deserve to be his other woman, I deserve all not little pieces here and there. I can't do this anymore I have to become strong so he can't break me down with just a look. I see him with her and I become angry and can't believe I put myself there again, in his arms to feel his warmth and his kisses on my lips. Hearing him tell me how much he loves me no matter what I know how full of shit he really is. He never has and never will love me. He always says that its the never the right time for either one of us and I think it's just an excuse so he never has to commit to me. Why do I always put myself in this spot. I've known him for 2 years and it is always the samething and I always find myself being his mistress. Why doesn't he see that is not healthy for either one of us? He has a girl she lives with him in his house... but he says they sleep in separate rooms and why does she live there then. Why does he always prefer her over me? What does she give him that I don't?? Obivious not much since he always finds his way back to me.. I hate this why do I do this over and over.haven't i learned my leasson or do I have to do again again till my heart can't take anymore so then I know I can't do it... Someone please help me figure this out cuz apperently the plain fact that he hurts me it is not enough for me to hate him...

Trip to DR

Not only am I finally moving out I bought my self a little present which is a trip to the Dominican Republic for my 20th birthday.. my parents were pretty pissed that I decided to buy it on my own without their permission and that I'm going by myself no parental control at all to say the least. I'm so excited about my trip it should be a blast because a few of my cousins that live in New York will be there at the same time that I will so it is promising to be a fun but very quick week indeed but I'm gonna love it either way.. I live 8/15 till 8/24.

Another Boring Day at WORK!!!

so it 7:56 in the morning and my work day is supposed to start in 4 minutes guess what I have now like and I'm 20 minutes early to my shift and if it things go to plan I will be gettin off at 4:30 pm hopefully getting my cousins to help me start to move some of my clothes out of my house to Joe's apartment.. I'm sooo excited I can't wait, if we dont start moving clothes out then we will go to Target because I need a few things for my new room and for my trip so yeah... Hopefully I will get out of work early enough to do all this.

Lonely Girl

Ok, before my girls kill me for saying this.. I love them to death but I want a man love too, besides like Joe and Gabe. I'm really not all that lonely cuz I have the love of 2 beautifl girls and 2 very handsome guys too... I'm pretty lucky, but we talked about this weekend some they know what I mean when I say I'm lonely... I just want a guy... Well I better get a more upbeat intro blog I promise I'm working on it.